Bible Study Tuesdays

WooHoo! Yet again I say, Love me some Beth Moore! Seriously, she is gifted at bringing God's word to life so that we are able to glean something different than we might have gotten on our own. She seems humble with her gift of teaching and that makes her all the more appealing to me - yet I know that at the end of the day, it is God's word, not hers. anyhoo, God is just continuing to reveal to me how blessed I am. My hardworkin' Sgt., kiddos trying their best most days:) I am so quick to see the hard work I "have to do" everyday just to keep this house running, that I so often overlook the abundance He has placed in our life. So, for an early Thanksgiving: I am grateful for the Sgt., his godliness, loyalty to our family, work ethic, sense of humor, humility, love for me and the kids, what a good friend he is, his quiet strength (I know I can count on this man), and for being an amazing handyman! My sweet children: J, so creative and sensitive, huge questions about his God and faith, growing into quite a little man himself. What a fantastic big brother too. EK, my precious girl - smart, funny, great expressions, big-helper, loves her brothers and is so inquisitive, tender too to how I'm feeling. Lil' man - wow, what a ride this first year has been, but you're sleeping through the night now and you are funny! I am just so thankful, even through the sadness of losing my mom, that God has seen fit to bless us so completely. Thank you God.
P.S. - I know what horrid grammar was just used in the above post, so don't go sendin' me comments about how I should banned from blogging or whatever. I'm just sayin'...

Monday's are Moms In Touch, the prayer group I meet with to pray for J and all of the kids in his school. I started attending last year and it has been such a blessing in my life! It is made all the sweeter because of the dear women with whom I pray. THey are generous of spirit and love for their own kids as well as the students at our school. What an honor to pray with these godly women! Today I was reminded of just how blessed we, as a family, are. Our marriage is strong, our kids are healthy and "normal" - we can so easily take for granted that our children are not broken of spirit, heart, or mind. Even though 'lil man sometimes makes praying quite challenging, I wouldn't trade that time for anything. I also felt God pricking my heart in the area of obedience to spending time in His word. Now that lil man is sleeping through the night and not rising before the chickens, I really need to commit to taking that time to be with Him each day. I KNOW how much better I feel when I do this, so it's just a matter of overcoming the flesh:) So easy-right?

A new day

After a ROUGH weekend last week, this weekend has proven to be much better. My sister and dad (plus niece and nephew) got home safely as did my brother-in-law, so that was a big prayer answered. My kiddos are semi-healthy (anyone who has kids knows this state of limbo between health and sickness that hovers over a house...a cough that comes back to life during the night, a snotty nose that rears it's ugly head in the morning, you know!) So, the Sgt. is home more now that the mowing season is wrapping up - HUGE for me. It is amazing how God designed us to truly NEED our partners - just spending time together is such a mood-balancer for me, sets my course for the week. Kind of like spending time with God - I am SUCH a slow learner:)
Lesson: God designed our husbands to be earthly reflections of HIS guidance, love, support, wisdom, compass.
Ok, enough for now - lil' man slept in til 7 ish, after he cried from 5:45-?, but at least he slept in! But because of church he only had 1 nap and it was only 30 minutes!!! Are you kidding me? 30 minutes all stinkin' day? And then we missed the library trick-or-treat (I missed the time by and hour:() SOOOO, they were super sweet and let the kids grab some candy and play a couple of games. Bad mommy! Oh well, so my super mom cape just fell off...another day in the life of a super (a.k.a. forgetful, sleep-deprived, not functioning on all cylinders) mom.

back to life, back to reality

So I woke up this morning, well, I was woken up by lil' man at 5 AM!, and thought, ok today will be a better day. Not so much. I know God's mercies are new every day, but mercy just doesn't feel like enough. I need superhuman strength... and yes, I know He will also provide strength and comfort - honestly, I'm just not feelin' it. I have not walked away from my faith. I have not abandoned God, though I feel abandoned by Him. I just want some peace in my heart and not this daily sorrow. I will continue to pray that this is just a part of walking through grief...not a life-sentence. I do have joy-husband, kids, family, friends...just still am in wonder that this is my life now (and my dad's, sister etc.) that is life without my mom. Inconcievable. Totally.
mel

Sad Sunday

Ok, so this is the first...the first time we will not celebrate my mom's birthday. Since she died I have felt like I am walking kind of leaning off center a bit. In the days leading up to this weekend we have been busy, but that overwhelming sadness has crept in... at night, rocking lil' man, buying pumpkins. It is inescapable and terrible...there are just no other words to decribe it.
We had a great time at the concert. Our seats were on the second row! Wow - I am soooo old. That music was just so stinkin' loud:) I wore earplugs! It was a great night though and the kids did great for M. Thank goodness - even lil'man fell asleep with no problems. It's been beautiful here, so we spent the rest of the weekend outside. No church today though since lil'man has yellow stuff coming out of his eyes and nose - GROSS! Oh well.
Hope to come out of this funk sometime soon...

Date night!

WooHoo! Tonight's date night. Friends of the Sgt. got us sweet seats to the Gary Allen concert tonight in Fayetteville. The last concert we went to a was about a year ago - I won tickets to see Chris Tomlin during his Amazing Grace tour- awesome! So, my sweet friend M. is going to watch the troups so we can head down for a great night of music and time with the Sgt. friends from work. I'll let you know how it goes:) It's funny because we have joked about my need for earplugs! I know that makes me OLD:( I just can't stand LOUD music anymore and apparently we will be on the stage - pray for my tender ears!
Last night I got to go hang with my homies - my two dear friends K and M. We had chips and salsa, an adult beverage, and some wonderful conversation. These two women are such a blessing in my life and were completely God-sent - Love me some girl time with these 2 gals:)
The Sgt. took care of the kiddos, and yes that meant a trip to McDonalds. Oh well- they'll still grow, right? J and EK had AWANA - this is our first year to do this and we have been so impressed with their retention of scripture and they so enjoy their time with their friends there. I've got cleaning to do today and then lunch with friend to catch up with her life. Does this happen to anyone else - you start the month with a nice clean (read empty) calendar and in a matter of a week those little blocks are all filled up! We still have downtime, but it seems that we have to protect it so carefully. We're not THAT popular either ! It's just life I guess. Hope you all have a great day. til next time!