Traditionally, Wednesday is called "hump day." This is just the case for me this week. Ryan has remained off O2 for 2 days now and his stats are holding fine. He has nursed well on 2 occasions, not so hot on another 2, has taken a bottle well a few times, and not so great another couple. We are on the hump. He has to "prove" that he can eat and gain weight before he can come home. So, is he not consistently eating well because he's still too immature, or as I suspect, just lazy because he's gotten so used to being fed through a tube. I am a demand-feed mommy for my infants. When they tell me they're hungry, i feed them. It's that simple and infants quite predictably fall into their own 2-4 hour schedule within a day or so. However, we're dealing with a NICU full of people who rely on numbers, not a mommy's gut. So we'll sit here on the hump until either Ryan budges, or time moves us in the right direction. In the meantime, I have paved a road for the Lord to bring my baby home. I set up the pack-n-play, put in the carseat, and in my heart, made room for hope that it will be soon that my family is together.
Today, I am going to breastfeed all day (at each feeding I mean!) and we'll see how he does on that kind of schedule. Wish us luck:) And thank you again, for each of you lifting up our family and our sweet boy - your comments on the blog, your facebook notes, phone calls, and cards have buoyed us as we put our heads down into the wind and persevere!