As any follower of Christ knows, this walk, this life is sometimes so hard. Death of a loved one, difficult financial situations, broken relationships, disappointments...sin brought so much ugliness into our world. We have to choose, daily, to see God in our lives. It stands to reason that there are going to be days that this choice "feels" easier and those when it seems almost impossible! Having godly friends can help greatly in this area. As does having parents and other older relatives who demonstrate how to live out one's faith, in the midst of life. So it goes here at the Simpson house:) The daily challenges of homeschooling, character issues, and the overall weariness that can arise in mothering 4 people day in and day out - they all can lead me to feel burnt out and empty. My friend is writing an ebook which sets out to encourage and demonstrate how to have a quiet time. My sister is faithful in rising early to spend time with the Lord, and my dad is never far from the scriptures early in the morning. My time too is before the day really gets underway. Will often joins me and then the others trickle out. This time really does prepare my heart for the challenges of the day as well as getting my eyes ready to see the blessings.
Right now we continue to parent through some character issues - lack of diligence, ugly tempers, and negative attitudes. Unfortunately, God continues to remind me that where the mom goes, so goes the child:) Where I show a short fuse, so will the boy. When I feel lazy and cut the lesson short because I'm frustrated, so will the child think that cutting corners is acceptable. Time and time again, this "one-piece life" (Ann VosKamp) shows me how lacking I am in every area. Yet, the hope comes in knowing that I don't have to be enough. Christ will be glorified in my shortcomings. I must only remember to rely on him moment by moment and extend his mercy to myself and my children. In this, we pray that they will be drawn to the gospel.
Ok, so some things to remember:
Ryan asking if we know the movie "Black Harry" - finally realizing that he means "Charlie Brown"
Jack working with Poppy to complete his toolbox for scouts - it's really amazing!
Hearing the kids encourage one another
Watching Ryan shadow Jeff - all day long, every move he makes, Ry is right there! Oh how he loves his daddy!
A great Thanksgiving visit with dad/Poppy - relaxed and fun, we all enjoyed our time with him.
Looking forward to the coming Advent season - trying to prepare our hearts and minds in a way that honors Christ's birth.